Your wants: What do I want less of in my life? .#10

I want less taxing relationships in my life. I want less morning grumpies. I want less stress and I want less time crunch. I also want less lack of what I want.

Over the last few months, I have spent a lot of time thinking and writing about how we co-create our lives relationships and realities with other people. When you begin to take responsibility for your life and really accept that you are solely responsible for the status of the relationships in your life, it can be a tough pill to swallow. So that rude cashier that I encountered at the grocery store is my fault? Well, let us get away from blame, but what was my attitude when I woke up this morning and how did I plan for that encounter at the store? That is the better question.

This morning, for instance, I was a little grumpy as my husband and I went for our three mile walk on the Greenway. He is always such a happy camper. Nothing kills his spirit. He wakes up happy and affectionate. This is what I want right? Well, the truth is sometimes it gets on my nerves. It definitely got on my nerves this morning. I did not sleep well and I was definitely grumpy.

Well, as we walked, he got chatty and happy. I got grumpier. I did not want to talk. I wanted to be alone in my sullenness and just think Why is he always so doggone happy all the time!

Well, I finally stumbled on the truth. The truth is that his happiness and affection tends to make me feel guilty. Yes, guilty. I know that being happy and affectionate is a good thing and I want more of that in my life but why do I hold on to those morning grumpies for just a little too long? Hmmmm……

This was an epiphany today – that my husband’s good mood actually stirs up guilt because it is really pointing me in the right direction. So, I embraced the guilt. Thanked it for serving such a great purpose in my life and let it go.

I knew I married that handsome guy for a reason.

So, as I had that epiphany, I started smiling. I felt so grateful for the lesson and that I had married such a great guy and that he loves to be around me, even when I am not my best. I then flowed into the feeling of appreciation for the Greenway and smiled at all the people we met along the way. I felt grateful that my husband is a runner but has started walking with me to support me and he goes at my pace. I realized that in the morning breeze, with the sun shining on my face, I am the most blessed girl alive.

Before you know it, the grumpies were banished away.

I am grateful that I have a relationship with a guy that unknowingly ups my vibe.

Now that is love!

Affirmation: I know what I want and it comes to me so easily.