The Soul’s Cry.

January 23, 2009 by Iyabo Asani  
Filed under Belonging

The young man on Oprah said he was a thirty something gay man who grew up in a small town in Alabama. He had gotten in the habit of getting a lot of credit and not paying it back even though he had the money to pay it back.

As he presented his situation to the Spiritual teachers on the show, Michael Bernard Beckwith and Reverend Ed Bacon, they pointed out his thrill seeking by getting into debt and that it was his soul’s cry to live fully and feel alive. The Reverend Ed Bacon, an episcopalian priest said, “Your being gay is a gift.”

Everyone was very distracted about the comment by the right Reverend and almost all took offense. Especially on Facebook and Twitter where comments were flying all around.

However, I was struck by the explanation that when he first discovered that he was gay and was still in the closet, there was a certain thrill to the experience. Once he came out the closet, although by most standards, he was no longer hiding anything, he had previously been defined by hiding his gayness. Therefore, since he had lost that identity, he now was still thrill seeking other “shame based” ways to define himself.

I love how our souls, our inner being, refuses to be stifled and finds the most creative ways to get our attention.

Whether you can relate or not to being gay, it is the same template for a woman who was in an abusive relationship and ends up in another abusive relationship.

Or a smoker who gives up smoking but packs on the pounds.

What vibrational pattern is showing up in various areas of your life in the same way? Another way of saying this is how is your soul crying for your attention?

You cannot run away from it.

When you change your vibe, the underlying patterns will disappear.